Summer!

30.9.09, 9/30/2009 09:58:00 PM

every body's heart is like a flower....when you meet your sunlight, it will bloom....if u loss it...it will die.....like mine....my heart is like a rose....hardly even see a rose bloom.....in my life..this flower only bloom 2 time....not like alot ppl i know....their hearts are like sunflower...always facing the sun light...never close...always blooming.....i m always cheering ppl up outside but inside....i m crying out loudl.... thats y i want to go to the beach....no one will care if i shout there......i m free for once....can i get my sunlight of my life??...y cant she understand.....i only draw wen i feel sad n lonely......i nvr draw greaet wen i m happy.....the little comic i did everyone say it was me....ya..it is me but not at the outsidde...but inside.......everything that happen in the comic is happening in my heart.....i always thing that things always get worst before it get better but things for me all get worst before it get even worst...........AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!......she ignoring me all the time.....she did tok to me but only about5 times a day......i felt jealous when she tok to the guys.....i mmy hurt when she is sick.....everything she gone through it happens to me too.......i've been tring to help her but in her action.....she dun wan my help.....i want to let go but i cant.......i did try but i just....just...just cant.....wat should i do??...pls...someone give me an answer.....i nid to know......i m always trying to tok to her....even we tok...i tried to put it longer but she did not care......in MSN...at tok face to face.....she did not answer me.......all her actions can be tell.....it can tell me everything.......i know she dont like me n i know tat it is no use loving her anymore but i just cant help it....i cant stop it......i know alot ppl like her but the thing is.......she like the other ppl more dan me......i can just be a rock sitting there looking at her with other guy or i have to tell her and get the answer even i knoe that her answer will be "NO!"....